Day 8- Someone you wish could forgive you

(wow i'm in a blogging mood today!)

Dear Ginny,

This blog has taken me forever to write cause honestly, I don't know what to say. When I read what this blog was suppose to be about, your the only one that popped in to my head. So I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

I'm sorry. I guess thats all there is too it. I don't really know how else to put it other then I'm sorry. I'm sorry I hurt your feelings. I'm sorry we got in to a fight.

Sometimes I'm not a nice person, I know that... especially when I'm angry, or upset.

I don't ever expect you to forgive me after all that was said, I'm sure you won't ever read this, and I hate that.

I hate that we have a lot of the same friends, and I would never ask them to choose between you and me.  We also have a lot of places in common as well, and its hard not to say hi to you.

I miss you, but at the same time I don't. I'm sure its my pride talking saying that I don't.

I wish we could just come to the conclusion that even though, we never are gonna be friends again, we could at least come to some sort of agreement, where yes if we see each other, we may not go running to each others arms but we could at least smile and nod at each other. 

Unless you want to be friends again... then I guess... more power to us?

I know this blog probably won't change anything either. But I really just needed to get it out.

I understand if you don't want to be friends, but I just hope you'll grant my wish and forgive.

Sincerely
Natalie



p.s. thanks to a little birdy for the picture.  :D

Day 7- Your ex.

Dear Matt Davis,




I'm going to be honest, in case you ever read this, and I think you will agree with everything i'm about to say...

If I had to write this two years ago, it would be filled with "I love you" or "We will be together forever."
One year ago, it would be filled with begging of "Please just leave me alone!"  "Just go away"
But now I can finally just say....

"Hi"

I still don't want to be friends with you. Just because (even though its hard to admit it) I will always have a soft spot for my first love, and I fear that it would cause far to much drama.

You were my first love, we had a great run and I can honestly say that I did love you. I loved you with all my heart, and you broke it.
I told you once that I would always love you, and there is a tiny part of me that still does.... well the old you. The young Aussie boy I fell for, not the jerk you turned in to.

We had everything working against us when we met, we were opposites and from a world apart. and I think that's why we fell... also I'll admit it, I liked the attention and the  novelty of being with someone from Australia, because lets face it, your accent was pretty irresistible .

But I have to thank you. Thanks to you, I can say that I loved and was loved in return. I am patient when it comes to love... I do not need to see my boyfriend every day, and as long as I can see him more then once ever six months, I'm in heaven. Thanks to you, I know that communication is key.
I've learned a lot from our relationship, and I don't regret it.

So thank you Matt,
You're first
Natalie.

Day 6- a stranger

Dear Rude Customer, YES YOU!

I don't know your name and I don't care... I just know i hate you. I hate how you don't give me a chance, you think that just because I am a waitress that it means I am less then you.  I hate how you think that YOU are my only table, because everyone should know that you are the center of the universe and how dare I not treat you as such. I am trying my hardest. I hate how you get mad at my team members because they, (like me) are trying to wait on you hand and foot, I'm not sure why you got so mad at them, they were only try to help me. Is it because you wish to torture me? You like to think that I (and I alone) am your servant, and that it is a travesty that someone else tries to help me.

Its not like I'm standing around doing nothing and neglecting you. I can barely breathe when I am at work. I can not keep track of anything.... I realize I'm a bad waitress but I am learning. Or at least trying to learn.

But regardless, If another table treats me with respect, and is nice and patient, because they realize that I am trying, and that I am running around trying to get everything done. I will in turn treat them with respect, and why yes, I will refill their drinks faster. Why yes, I will ask them with glee "How is everything tasting?"

Which reminds me. Its not my fault that your food isn't how you imagined it would be. Believe it or not. I am not the one making the food, I am not the one who controls how long it takes. But hey, if you want a cheeseburger in under two minutes, please feel free to go to McDonalds,  and eat that over and over.... oh wait. judging from your appearance you already do. 

I also hate how if I make one little mistake, you do not tip me. Thats not fair, you think I like to make you angry?? Do you think I go back in to the kitchen to laugh about how self conscious you are? At least leave me something.
Well here is something you didn't know. When you treat me this way, you are the one who has to deal with karma.... You're the one who gets scolded, laughed at, and gossiped about by my coworkers.... and hell you even got a blog about you.

So thank you for being SO understanding and cheap. Please don't come back. 

Day 5- Your dreams

Dear Dream faeries,

Ya know what!? You just need to go away! Because when ever I wake up I am never happy.  The really good dreams are great, until I wake up and realize they are not real. The sad dreams you cast on me, make me even more sad when I wake up.  The weird dreams make me feel scared, like i don't understand my own head. I think i would rather not dream or just not remember any of my dreams.... since apparently not dreaming is unhealthy.

Day 4- Your siblings

Dear Ryan and Devin,

Hey guys! you are so awesome! best brothers i could ever ask for. Even though, i sometimes hate how protective you guys are,  i secretly love it! I'm so happy that I have two older brothers like yourself! ^^
Sometimes you guys don't make the best decisions. (don't we all) and I have learned its better just to keep my mouth shut. ;)


Your little sister,

(So this one is for yesterday!)

Day 3- Your parents

Dear mom and daddy,

I love you both so much, even though we fight frequently i do love you.  You guys are very easy going and let me do almost anything, the things you don't approve of, you have good reasons why its not a good idea and sometime in the future i see that you were right. (cept for me not getting a puppy i still don't understand that logic...haha)
Thanks for letting me get away with so much
Thanks for letting me sleep in your bed when i was little, and had a bad dream.
Thanks for cleaning up after me
Thanks for bailing me out of tough spots
Thanks for always letting me come home
:)

Love
Your daughter.

I'm a Cat whisperer

Yup you heard me....
so basically I've fostered kittens now for a few years and three days ago I got two little 10 week old kittens. Joselyn and James!!

arn;t they cute???
My shelter wanted to experiment as to how they might behave in a home and if they can get over their apparent shyness.

Well i'm happy to say i'm three days in and the kittens have done the following things
1. not run away when i pet them
2. purred
3 sat in my lap (on their own)
4. Let me pick them up
5. slept on my bed at my feet
 They are making great progress and are now crying because i'm eating breakfast and not paying any attention to them.
Silly kids. :)

I'm trying to find a kitten sitter for today.

Day 2- Your crush

Dear Crush,
Sadly I don't have a picture of you on the computer that I am using to write this. Gosh you mean so much to me, you are so much more then my crush, you are my love.... You smell amazing and i'm always stunned when i see you.
I know you hate Twilight but i've read the books, and from the very first time i met you i thought of this...
"You really shouldn't do that..."
"What?"
"Dazzle people."
"I dazzle people? Do i dazzle you?"
"Frequently."

It so true! you do dazzle me haha!
You are the most amazing man i have ever met. You are one of my favorite people on the planet. Even though i don't get to see you as much as i would like to, the times i do see you, i never want it to end! I'm trying very hard to be the best i can be because of you.  You give me fantastic advice, and even though you don't admit it you make me a better person. I love you and i miss you.

<3